Typical Parkinson's

I saw my personal shrink for the first time a few weeks ago. He specializes in Parkinson’s – not the physical manifestations, but the mental ones. He described me to myself quite accurately (i.e. I am typical for a Parkinsonian). And although I claimed to be apathetic, and he argued that I suffered from a lack of drive (typical P). And much as I hate to say it he could be right, so my next claim is that it’s just a matter of semantics.

I’m also mildly offended to be described as typical – I’m special, me. I want the phrase “when you have seen one case of Parkinson’s, you have seen one case of Parkinson’s” to be true. Although I can now spot a fellow Parkinsonian from 50 paces – the slow shuffle, the stiff arms, the sticky feet etc. – I am still sure each and every one of us has our own idiosyncrasies.

I seem to oscillate between on the one hand claiming that I’m very, very sick, as if I’m not going to be believed, and on the other hand shrugging it off as “just one of those things” and trying to pretend there are no problems – but if I’m that healthy in mind and body what am I doing seeing my own personal shrink? (Actually the plan is to have part of the session as a couple and part to each ourselves, but I suspect the couple stuff will also be focused on me.)

The pills also have a large effect on my mood; I bounce from lethargic couch potato to pacing panther when I endlessly walk from one end of the living room to the other in the same way that animals in zoos trace out stereotypical behaviours. Shrink is on holiday so there will be a month between first and second visit, more than enough time to ponder my mental condition.

My physiotherapist is also on holiday, but to make sure I got no rest I had an appointment with the speech therapist, the first in 3 months. The good news is that she saw no change. I, on the other hand, have started having minor difficulties swallowing, and some cheek and tongue biting. Minor symptoms, I know, but worrying nonetheless – and I probably focus on them particularly because of background in dentistry and research on the mechanics of eating.

Last week we saw my neurologist who had the report from the evaluation at ParkNet. We mainly discussed drugs, dosage, timing, etc. It feels to me that we now have the correct drug cocktail, all the right ingredients, so all we have to do now is fine tune the dosage(s) and timing(s). We also had an appointment with the Parkinson’s specialist nurse, though it turned out she didn’t know why she was seeing me and neither did I. But we had a nice chat, and it was reassuring in a way – she was the first person to imply that I was doing OK and that she didn’t see any major deterioration.

It’s been hot and humid again. Marie was away for a week in Korea which I spent sweating and ignoring the blog, computer and cat. The cat, however, makes its wishes known with sharp claws, mainly demanding food, but sometimes angling for affection (a bit like me, really).
My next task is to organize the itinerary for our holiday – a week of random driving through the French country-side and a week in a remote cottage. I plan to keep this as unplanned and random as possible, but Marie has other ideas – though I think we can come to some kind of compromise (i.e. we may be spontaneous on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and for the other days we will have a detailed route map plotted into Mrs Tomtom – “At the roundabout, turn left”).

And now as I write I notice my typing is getting a bit blurry, so it’s pill time again ...